Time of Anger

We are angry at times, perhaps everyday, perhaps every hour. In our work we see anger flashing. In the world we see anger’s sharp teeth. Is anger the face of evil? What if we see an angry baby or child? Two dogs facing off sometimes express anger. We do not believe they are evil, do we?

Anger is a signal that we do not believe things are going according to or desires and plans. We want things to go easily. We want them to go our way–right now. If we do not get our way we may explode with anger.

What is this part of us that expects things to go so easily according to our desires, if not the immature self, the inner child? At times, anger may be the correct response to a situation. Need to jump across a cliff to survive? A burst of anger will give you an extra lift of energy. More often, anger is a hot energy that wants to destroy rather than to survive or create beauty. Another part of us knows that a person who is master of some art or craft has spent hours practicing, until most of the unwanted motions or mistakes are eliminated or avoided ahead of time. Then art is achieved seemingly effortlessly and without the heat of anger.

So it seems anger is the smoky energy of inexperience, and thus ineffectiveness, that can only be overcome by further experience, which leads to calm mastery. On the other hand, this life provides so many different kinds of experience and drills to be mastered, there seems an infinite opportunity for anger.

Anger must be the emotion of the beginner, the apprentice, with a far longer journey-path towards mastery than expected. The child expects instant gratification. The adult knows practice and repetitions are required.

It is human to feel discouraged, to feel one has failed, to feel the path is endless with no good ending. All of us have felt this way. Hopefully everyone has had the experience of attempting some goal or practice that was at first difficult and then after much experience became splendidly easy and satisfying.

Certainly we all remember trying to tie our shoes that first time. Now it is done almost unconsciously, our fingers knowing just what to do and at high speed! Older now, our tasks and challenges are far more complicated and demand much greater refinement.

If we recognize our feeling of frustration as merely the energy of a beginner then perhaps we can accept anger as a gauge of our progress. We are far beyond getting angry at tying our shoes or hitting a ball. We are now attempting very difficult things. We have much longer apprenticeships.

We are now attempting to become compassionate beings. This is the highest achievement in the universe. To be loving, patient and kind in every moment is far beyond any achievement with a piano, paintbrush or ball. If you experience a puff of anger you can say, “This is just another apprentice moment, but I will keep trying until the art comes to me. It is only a matter of time. I will let the anger go–and try again.” Anger is actually self criticism, or criticism of another person. Let this anger go and get on with your work.

It is pleasing and satisfying to watch a master at work. The master sees difficulties before they arise–and the master is smiling. The calm smile is the face of the master. When you are experiencing the heat of anger, picture the master’s smiling face. That face belongs to you, when you are the master.       Phil

What Do You Believe?

I’m tired. I always catch a cold twice a year. Life is a struggle. This world is a wonderland. This world is an awful place. I’m too quiet. I talk too much. I’m a good person. I’m a loser. If things can go wrong they probably will.

All of these statements are simply beliefs. None of them are eternal laws. Yet most of us at times have made one or other such statements. Temporarily at least they become our own personal statement of beliefs and thus–our personal laws.

Such beliefs usually originate in childhood. Some may begin with offhand remarks of acquaintances. Believing that ‘the world is an awful place’ may come from reading newspapers and believing that they represent a balanced view of the world.

The wonderful thing is, you are a co-creator of reality. What you tell yourself about yourself and about the world causes your creative equipment to immediately set about creating in your life what you believe to be true. “I’m unlucky.” No problem. Your equipment immediately attracts to you like a magnet the conditions where you can prove “I’m unlucky.”

It’s been shown that deep-felt thoughts such as, “I feel very calm and tranquil” or, “I am full of healing power and energy”–can produce powerful results in the body, lowering blood pressure and heartrate. Allowing yourself to become afraid or feeling emotional turmoil produces the opposite results instantly–and a feeling of unwellness. We’ve all had this experience with a sudden scare (a car backfires) or from learning upsetting news (our job is going to be eliminated). So what can you do?

The most important thing you can do for yourself today is inventory your list of personal beliefs, your personal laws of life. What are you constantly telling yourself about yourself which your body and mind have no choice but to respond to and recreate in the physical world? What do you tell yourself about this life? What is your narrative? You are not alone if you are completely unaware of personal beliefs you are proving every day!

If you believe the world is a sad and evil place you will zero-in on stories that prove this every day. If you believe the world is filled with beauty and magnificent works you will certainly find abundant beauty from sunrise to sunset.

Can you see it is you who create your own reality? Can you understand “Life is you happening to you”? And if this is true, just as an artist creates a beautiful landscape or a stark wasteland, can you see it is you who are responsible–not somebody else?

Try this experiment. Next time you are feeling tired (maybe even exhausted) tell yourself, “I feel strong. I can be tired later when it’s time for the body to refresh. Right now I feel marvelous!” Try it. Feel the surge.

Your body, your life, your reality, responds powerfully to what you believe. You are making your own choices. You are responsible for You.       Phil

Process of Elimination

God in all wisdom has given you a body that takes in food nutrients, then as if by magic and without any conscious effort on your part, uses the good food material and eliminates the un-useful, even poisonous parts. This keeps your body strong and healthy, and this process of elimination goes on every day.

On the other hand, God in all wisdom, has not put into you this unconscious process of elimination in your conscious thinking and emotional processes. Being human, you tend to hold onto pleasant as well as unpleasant thoughts; healthy as well as unhealthy emotions. As long as you sip from a cup of toxic thoughts and emotions of anger, wrongs, hurts, hatred, grief, greed, desires for revenge–you become a toxic being. You lose your peace of mind and eventually become very unhealthy and very unhappy.

Some even take up toxic habits of consumption to ease feelings of unwellness: comfort foods that taste good but are unhealthy; alcohol; tobacco, etc. Such consumption delivers this person to an even lower level of unwellness, even to despair. What can we do?

Well, what does the body do? It eliminates toxins every day.

This tells us we must make a conscious effort every day to eliminate our own mental and emotional toxins. Perhaps at the end of the day just before sleep would be the ideal time for this purification.  This means cleansing prayers of forgiveness concerning your so-called transgressors; or letting go of a situation that seems unfair or uncalled for. Whatever is upsetting your emotional stomach and mind you must let go. What purpose does holding toxic feelings serve except to make you feel bad?

Does this mean we will be giddy with happiness all the time? Probably not.

Just as the body is unwell for short periods of time due to germs or viral infections–which take time for the body to round up and throw off–so too you will have eruptions and disruptions in your mental and emotional life to assimilate and digest and so regain your equilibrium and peace of mind. This is normal. What is harmful is if you are still stewing about something that happened years ago. This is indigestion. What can you do?

Sit down with yourself. Write about the person or events in your life that you are still dragging over the emotional coals after all these years. Don’t hold back. Write without stopping, without editing. Let it rip. Then prioritize these burning coals: the radioactive hottest–to those that are merely unpleasantly warm. Start with the hottest coal and pour cooling waters of forgiveness upon it. For instance: You couldn’t help what you did–I forgive you. It really taught me a powerful lesson that made me strong. Begin the process of elimination. This hottest coal may take many evening of serious meditation, prayer and journaling. Writing is good because it helps you communicate with yourself. Writing will give you gifts of understanding you don’t even realize are hidden within you.

What is the goal of elimination? This may sound far-fetched right now but the new state of digestion and tranquility sounds like this: You may have intended harm but instead you gave me gifts of strength and understanding I could receive in no other way. You appeared as my enemy. You left as my teacher. I now make choices to end being hateful and begin being grateful.

Yes, hard work. If you cannot do this, healing will not begin, unwellness will persist. If you try the process of elimination every night, healing will begin.

The cooling well of healing is waiting inside you right where God put it. You can drink the healing water or not. It is your choice to be well, or unwell. Read The Lord’s Prayer. Write it down. Post it in front of you. Begin your meditation with it. Realize the way to healing and purity was given to you a long time ago. Isn’t it time begin? Isn’t it time to drink from the well of wellness? Are you weary enough of being un-well?       Phil

Good News About You

Every great master teacher who comes into this world comes to teach–not for the purpose of being deified, glorified, bowed down to, or worshipped. The teacher comes to teach. To show you how it’s done. The master says, “What I do, you will do also.” The greatest story ever told is about the master being born into this world and then teaching love and forgiveness and overcoming pain and death. The story not very well told is all about you.

You are a royal child. Your mother is this earth, the divine queen, life incarnate. Your father is in heaven, the divine King, the invisible, powerful ideas that shape your life. But you do not believe you are a royal child. Life causes you to doubt your royal lineage and heritage. You doubt you are a divine child.

If you were a royal child wouldn’t you ride around in a gold carriage and sit on a velvet cushion eating bonbons all day? Things should be easier if you really were the King’s child, right? See again the greatest story ever told.

The master teacher has nothing to do with velvet cushions or bonbons. The master is doubted, ridiculed and tortured for proclaiming divine heritage for all people, and for claiming for all the sonship to the King of Heaven. Because the master teacher is completely familiar with the divine and invisible principles of the Father in Heaven as well as the physical laws of the visible Mother Earth, the master is able to perform what we call divine miracles–to give the children of this world hope. The master brings Heaven into Earth. Secular kings don’t like it, not in the distant past, not today.

The master teacher brings the keys that unlock the doorway into Heaven. Love one another. Forgive. Believe. Have real faith even as tiny as  a mustard seed, and you will move mountains. The master teacher hands these keys to us. The greatest story is our story. It’s all about you. Your pain, your struggle, it all matters. You have no idea how incredibly important you are. You are the seed the teacher is trying to grow. Yes, you.

The master teacher is worshipped not with words–but by practicing the lessons, the Keys. The progress of our story depends on the use of the Keys. Are you loving more? Forgiving more? Believing more? Or do you spend your time angry, in a fury, in a self-fulfilling cocoon of doubt?

The greatest story has been lived and told by the great master teachers. Now it’s your turn. You are the beautiful child of the King and Queen! Will you now take up your royal heritage of love and forgiveness? Will you awaken to who you really are? It’s the good news about you. Go now into the world and practice it. Yes, you.       Phil


One single measure of human evolution matters. Not numbers of libraries or universities, not sizes of cities, not vastness of technological wonders, not sizes of armies, not speed of rockets, not number of cars, phones or TV’s and RV’s per household. What then you ask could it be? What else matters in this world of shining wonders?

All these are simply play toys of the universe’s creative children and there’s nothing wrong with children playing toys. But what is the ground work, great work of the universe for those who have awakened from the long dream of childhood?

Works of love are the real concerns of this Earth-type, Goldilocks planet. Works of love–Labors of love. Things not done for profit, not for personal gain, not for fame, not for hire. Unselfish deeds. Giving of time, talent, treasure. With no need or desire to receive things in return. Generosity not just in times of abundance but sharing even the last crumb of bread in times of hunger. This is the evolution of the human being this world is designed to produce: loving, caring human beings.

Of course most of us are yet children of the universe, or at least exhibit childish tendencies. And this is not shameful or bad. Childhood is the wonderful time of shiny toys and delightful games. Not to mention a little pushing and shoving and crying. It doesn’t last forever–although it seems to on this earth where the news is filled with pushing and shoving and crying. But news is not the truth. Or rather it is a temporal-temporary truth.

This world has seen a few saints or divine beings (Mohammed, Buddha, Jesus, or name the one you prefer) functioning as human-divine adult beings with powers and understandings far beyond the ordinary children of earth–all of them fully functioning in what matters to the universe, all of them fully functioning in love.

There is nothing wrong with being a child. In the natural course of evolution all creatures must first be selfish to survive. Selfishness is the first order of the universe. You must survive! It is natural for the early part of our life to be more or less selfish. This is simply the beginner’s stage. But it isn’t the last order of the universe.

Soon we are called to do wonderful, loving deeds of kindness. Soon we manifest wonderful, loving things. This is evidence of our growing evolution in Love. The beginning of this evolution has to do with recognizing the universe’s abundant sources and resources constantly renewing themselves around us and surrounding us. A a big step for the child, the first big baby step outward of trust that the universe holds a safety net of love and energy beneath us and surrounding us. The world is full of so many illusions and delusions to the contrary. It is a big step getting past terrors of scarcity created by childish players. The truth is the earth is full of abundance that is constantly being squandered and horded by childish players. When we use our powerful telescopes to gaze out into the deeps of space we see vast displays of shining energy beyond human comprehension. The only poverty of the universe is in the human mind. We are here to overcome that illusion of poverty. How is it done? What would that take?

Once we recognize that we are children of the stars, children of the vast energy-filled universe, we can stop feeling insecure and needy. Confidence flows in. Transformation takes place. Does the creeping caterpillar really have any idea his future is as an iridescent flying being of the sky? The transforming thoughts are: The universe has surrounded me with abundance and power! It has given me exactly the gifts I need to achieve a certain mission in this life! I can live! I can love! I can fly! I can flow!

While this world continues to have the appearance of a noisy child’s nursery, Love is growing in the noisy nest. This is the only evolution that matters, the evolution from selfishness to love: Evolove. Yes, it’s spelled forwards and backwards the same if that gives you any clue to evolution. A palindrome, is our evolution.

It is up to you to recognize the world for what it really is: a place for children to learn how to grow in love. The universe is making human beings out of selfish beings. Do you have any idea how long that takes? (Hint: think in billions of years.)       Phil

Fate 101

Of course we moderns don’t like the ancient idea of fate since we live in the land of freedom, opportunity and possibility. We prefer to believe that the future is wide open. Generally speaking this is true; specifically it is not. For instance: you enjoy music, you are modestly talented, you like to think you could be a great composer (if only you worked long and hard enough exploring the great mysteries of music, if only you had enough time!)

Ah, there’s the rub–you have a mundane job/family/social life/ dog and cat. You weren’t born wildly brilliant–so you don’t have enough time or talent to become a great musician. But still you have enough time for music (or anything else you truly love ) to become moderately good at it or at least as good as you can be given the amount of time you apply to it with your modest aptitude. You must admit you are not going to become a world-renowned artist.

(What? You are limited by your–fate? Ah! If only there were enough time for passion!)

The ancient Greeks believed in the ‘Fates’: goddesses bestowed upon human beings their virtues, talents and weaknesses–and length of life. This suggests a predestined life that is limited and well-known to the goddess, but mostly unknown to mortals. Like a hand of cards in a poker game, some are handed aces, kings and queens and others are handed lesser cards. We moderns do not like that at all! Then comes the matter of how are the cards played: for the benefit of others or purely for selfishness?

Hand-in-hand with the Fates were the Furies, who dish out punishment for our misdeeds, or poorly played cards. A Greek soldier went into battle worry-free because the Fates had already decreed how long he would live and whether he would be a hero or a lesser being. Oh, how primitive! Well then, let’s see how far we moderns have advanced.

Now we call the Fates by a new name: genetics. Now we do not say our life is predetermined, we say instead it is predisposed. Now we have tendencies. Now we have inherited characteristics. Of course we accept environment as a contributing factor–but we know in our bones it is our genes that hold the high hand in our behavior. We no longer say “The devil made me do it.” We say, “My genes made me do it.” This is the genetic excuse.

On the other hand because of long observation in something so simple as physical exercise, we know that someone with a genetic tendency towards obesity or thinness, or weakness can–by determined effort of exercise and diet–completely transform into the shape more desired by the individual. A true definition of heroic: To overcome one’s genetic tendencies! Don’t you see people achieving beyond their limitations all the time? Or underachieving because they truly believe in their genetic limits?

Some of us still can’t help asking, “Why God didn’t you give me great genes, great talents? Paul McCartney,  Jimi Hendrix, Prince, Jim Morrison, Mick Jagger, all from the great talent-pool wildly beyond normal–why couldn’t I have been born from that pool? So I could achieve greatly and not have to putz around in this economy-class gene pool? Why did Beethoven get world-class talent from the pool, and not me?

Let’s say you are God. You create millions of people and then they die. Now what to do with them? Our astronomers see mind-bogglingly vast universes of spinning galaxies filled with spinning stars and spinning planets–some of them just right for life. “Hmmm,” you say, “What’s it for? But no, I’m not going to go there when I die. I’m going to some infinitely huge heaven no one’s ever seen, nor can anyone imagine.” Fine. Go there. While the vast amazing universe smiles down upon you.

Pretend you are God and one of your little people loves music, works hard at music, as well as caring for his aged mother and taking care of his work responsibilities. And even with all of these responsibilities he far over-achieves his fate pool of genes and nearly becomes a master of music except for some wonderful unknown capacity, one single missing element we call genius for lack of a better word–and then because of a bad loaf of pumpernickel–he dies. What does God do with this nearly wonderful musician? A) Make room for him in the already overloaded heavenly choir? Or B) Send him back down to earth and name him Beethoven? What would you do?

Consider this. What if your so-called Fate, your so-called genetics, are the current crop of your previously sowed seeds from the merits and demerits of your previous existence? If this were true would it give you motivation to keep pushing your limited genetics to the limit? And whatever crop (or famine) you create in this life you will surely harvest in the next? All of the Good Books say it’s true. The big disagreement is whether the Next Life is in some foggily described heaven–or here on this incredibly dynamic gene-pool of a planet.

Could it be that your future ‘fate-or-genes’ are completely determined by your heroic efforts to overcome your limitations of today? That your current limitations are only temporary and only apply as long as you believe yourself limited to your ‘fate’?

Can you believe you are limited as well as unlimited? Is this the real Fate?       Phil

The Wind-Fire Soul

You say to me you have a hard time believing in invisible power or that an invisible power could affect you. You say: “Show me a miracle and then I’ll believe in the invisible.” Let’s consider a few invisible things.

On a windy day what snatched that hat from your head? What lifted that bird into the sky? What shakes those leaves in the trees making them whisper? What do you see? You see nothing because you know it’s only the wind.

What’s that you’re breathing into your lungs? Wind! Without those invisible puffs of power you’d be down for the count in a minute. Yet you don’t believe Divine Invisible Power is all around you surrounding you? (Please see my blog called, Letter from Bobb, the Fish). What would it take to make you a believer in the Invisible?

How can you talk to me? How does the wind in your throat change into the sounds we call words–words that transfer information from you to me? How do you make wind-sounds that I understand, that communicate your feelings and needs to me?

Speaking as one living puff of wind to another, we are all walking, talking, waking miracles. What is a miracle? It is something that is yet beyond explanation which in due course we will understand–as we will slowly and eventually understand All–and nothing will be miraculous, but merely wonderful. In the meantime we are surrounded by miraculous invisible power that our scientists can barely understand. Science is barely beyond its own childhood in explaining things. Science is in its teen years, with a strong young frame, but with much growing, much speculation, much wild territory left to explore. Try this one on for size.

What is fire, for instance? We take fire for granted having used its wonders for thousands of years. Somehow a combination of fuel, air and heat–but what is it? My belief is, fire is so sacred–such a divine invisible power–it should never be blown out with the breath, your own divine wind. As wind is a vital life force and is not intended to extinguish life, blowing out a candle is symbolically the equivalent of profanity. (Here we are speaking of ceremonial use of candles not festive use such as birthday parties). The proper way to extinguish a ceremonial candle is with a candle-snuffer and as the light is extinguished, say, “This light returns to the invisible world!”

Listen! You are wind made visible! You are fire hidden in the wind made visible. You are the divine Wind-Fire Soul enlightening this world. Don’t you know that?       Phil